May 23rd

Entry for May 23, 2007 The heat has been a nice change we are almost in June after all....but weather and natural wonders have always been on their own agenda.....apart from human want for a change of seasons....sleepy again...not sure why I feel this way...I think I slept...but again my body is telling me otherwise....long weekend is coming up...it will be nice to take a moment longer and just not have to be here.....there is always an underlying feeling of wanting to be somewhere else...in the woods....walking side by side....laughing....smoking crazy amounts that result in coughing and thirst....enjoying the sun on the bank of the river....smell of water and brush of wind against my skin...I need a long vacation....away from.....apart from.....as a child one never thinks about vacation as a luxury rather as a given as school comes to an end....as seasons change and nature starts booming with evolution into yet another state.....as a child vacation is something given....obvious that one deserves the time away from everyday...as an adult it becomes increasingly more difficult to be able to take time off.....job demands....reality........mundane repetitions of days in and days out....make it very hard to get away....to pretend like we are young again and fearless....we lose so much of us as we get older....as we begin to understand more of what the world expects from us....of what every day people want us to do........and how they want us to live.......we fall into the trap of expectations....and its one that is hard to release self from....lets escape for a while longer